Asleep at the Helm

Why is it that every time I'm walking under a street light, it goes out, and I therefore cannot see where I am going. Why?

I prefer the beach, hands down.  Yes, you get all sweaty sitting in the sand, but there is so much more to do at the beach, like hunt for glass and sea shells, play in the sand, or just go out and enjoy the water.  The other thing that ALWAYS happens in my family after we go to  the beach. . . . . . . . . .ICE CREAM!

I finally started working at the bar this past weekend, though not many hours.  We haven't been open much because business is slow until the word gets out about what it is and what they do.  It's nice to be able to do something every day again, though I do hate having to park half a mile away and walk, but then again, it will only help me to get into better shape.

I just got these pictures from my mother a few days ago,s o I thought I would post them up for everyone to see.  I am, as of three weeks ago, and uncle four times over, and I think this one is by far the cutest.  I'll start with the new one, her name is Claie Lilly, and she is just adorable, I don't think many newborns are, but she definitely takes the cake.


Next, in order of age is Henry, who will be turning two this year!  He is side by side with Claire.



Lastly, we have a picture of Maya, on the left, and Ava, on the right.  Maya is four, and ava is six, they sure do grow fast!



I hadn't seen them in so long, and they weren't sure who I was when I came in the door, but they warmed right up to me, except Henry, who is struggling with losing his mommy to the newborn, he is quite the mama's boy.

Finally got some pics of my apartment, except the bedrooms(still a little too disorderly to post pics, but they'll come likely tomorrow.)
First off, the entryway, which leads into the kitchen, and also splits off to the left into the living room.


The entry way opens on the left into the living room....(my nerd roomate playing with his new iPod Touch)


And the rest of the living room is as such


a little messy, but we are getting things sorted out.
The kitchen, which was back at the entryway, looks as such from the dining room, first from the left, and then the right.



And then the dining room, as shot from the kitchen, it needs a table and chairs:(


And the last pic, the Hallway, opening to Nate's room on the left, and mine all the way at the end of the hall.


Not a bad place, it'll be nice once everything is all said and done.  Need to get some artwork up on the walls!

Just about everything is set up in the new apartment.  We got DirecTV, AT&T DSL both set-up, though the DirecTV did take some creative doing, as we are on the wrong side of the building to get satellite signal easily.  Most of the boxes are unpacked, the only ones left are the junk boxes from near the end of the packing session, and we just got to tired to sort and threw stuff in.  This new place is nice, it is a two bedroom 1 bath, with a nice living room, balcony, kitchen, AND a dining room, which means I need to find some new furniture so I can sit down at a table to eat, not on the couch like a heathen.  It's also much quieter.  this place is back off the main roads, with a buffer of trees, though there is a railroad very close, that is easy to get used too, plus there doesn't seem to be much traffic during the night, only the morning and early afternoon.  I'll try to get some pics up tomorrow, I'll have most of the afternoon free to get things picked up in my room, and take some snaps of the place!

I've been quite busy lately, thankfully.  After having been unemployed for two months, I was given a job by a friend of mine who is teaching coordinator in the Crop and Soil Sciences department here at MSU.  I've been driving a van for an exchange program they run, I've been taking 50 chinese students from class to hotel to Meijer to Mall to where ever they want to go.  It has been easy, and it has earned me a lot of hours, I earned 52 hours last week, which if my math is correct, with the 20 hours from the previous week, will yield me a $780 check (before taxes.)  I have been very blessed with this position, and hope to continue to gain hours over the next week, and I have been assured I will.
I was supposed to work last night, driving the chinese students to a cook-out in Perry, but some students decided they didn't want to go, and two vehicles were unnecessary, the other being a school bus, so I was told I could go, and I decided to take the opportunity to go visit with my mother and father who were in Pinkney visiting my Sister, Cindy, and Brother-in-law.  My sister just gave birth to another baby, her fourth child, Claire Lilly, and my mother came to visit and help get things settled afterwards, and my father came this weekend to pick her up and celebrate his birthday.  She is so adorable, and she is very quiet and hardly fusses at all.  She is a cuddler to boot, and looks a lot like her mother did at that point.  I also got to see the rest of my nieces and nephew, Ava, Maya, and Henry.  Ava is six now, and I just can't believe how big she is.  Maya is four, and she is the spitting image of my other sister, Wendy.  Henry is having difficult times with this new arrival, because it has taken mommy away from him, so every little thing in life seems to be a battle for him, complete with loads of whining. 
It was good to see the family again, and it made me realize that I would like to have children someday.  I have often thought that it would be too much work and was something I was uninterested in, but I don't know, seeing that house amidst the chaos, it felt like home, and I don't know how I could live in peace and quiet all the time, considering I never have before.  I loved every cuddle I got from the kids, and I loved every good-night hug.  But most of all, holding that two-week-old was just astounding, and she didn't fuss or cry, she just cuddled, and it was amazing.  I've never seen a newborn that calm before.  It really got me thinking........

It has been below 70 the last two days, with today being 60.  It was nice not having to run the AC , and being able to enjoy the fresh air without suffocating.  However, it was so cold today my feet went numb for a little bit, it was nice, but I kinda miss the warmth now.
I haven't done much in the way of music this summer.  I am missing it a little bit, and kind of wish I had the money to afford a few lessons with Rod.  I could always just grab some music from the library and work on it myself.  It's a thought, any of you have ideas for what I could be doing?
My roomate and I have started a Star Wars marathon (his idea) and I say after it we do a TNG movie marathon, but he wants to go all the way back and start with the TOS movies.  I just don't think I can do that.  There is some good news for the Stargate Atlantis fans.  They have started a movie, which should release sometime next year, which is good, because I thought the series had zero closure in it(not stating specifics to avoid spoilers for all those who have not seen.)  Looks like a busy year for movies in 2010.......

Currently having the most uncomfortable conversation with my Ex.  Really want to just leave and walk away, but it's kind of funny seeing how hard she is trying to make conversation without saying she still loves me and wants me back.  She keeps trying to impress me with all of her "acheivements" in the past few weeks, which aren't impressive and don't really interest me.  Why is it that some people feel a need to keep a connection with people even when there isn't a connection anymore?  It really irritates me that this society has an inability to let go of the past even when the past was bad, they still want it back.  The biggest issue though that I have is she continues to make an attempt to play that she is worse off than she really is, and it irritates me.  She has no room to talk about how poor she is, because she is the reason that I am poor, she contributed almost no money to our relationship.
ARGH!
(these are the reasons I don't talk to her anymore, that and her inability to keep my attention)

I love this time of year.  I love thunder storms, I love bad weather.  It's so exciting to watch!  I was really unhappy, however, when the rain stated blowing in my window, mostly because I was enjoying some TV< and all of a sudden, I'm getting wet.  My windows get a lot of airflow, but when it is raining, that is not always a good thing.

Here we go with number 11!!!!!
Although, I do have some griping to do about some of the post-victory ceremonies.  I can understand Zetterberg as the MVP, but at the same time, does not Osgood deserve it just as much.  eight straight wins from the moment he set skate on the ice, two shut-outs, count them TWO in the finals alone.  The man clearly deserves it.  the number of times he bailed dom out during the saeson are unbelievable.  Second, was Lidstroms choice to give the cup to Drake first.  Drake has been chasing the cup for 16 years, but he wasn't that important of a play in the finals.  What about Franzen, or, sounding like a broken record, Osgood.  There are so many other people that deserve it.
Alright, I'm done, no more bitching.
GO WINGS!  ENJOY THE CUP!

So.......How did I not notice my ex was a moron for the two+ years I was with her.  It seems like every time she says anything to me now, it's on something she doesn't understand/has no frame of reference on, and just spits BS out her ass.  I swear, it is SOOOO frustrating and just angers me to no end.  On top of it, every time that we talk, it seems like the entire conversation is about how wonderful her life is, and how everything continues to fall in her fucking lap, when I have to claw my way through life to make enough money to eat, living from week to week on basically bread and water.  Life......what life.

So...........
It's been two years since I posted on this thing.  Seriously, the dust bunnies are ENORMOUS!  Pledge won't do shit in here.  Anyhow, on to life
I've been working my ass off for MSU. These past two weeks, I've worked about 115 hours, which yes, is some good overtime.  I was supposed to work well more, but they cut our hours after monday this week.  I don't really mind, I still have 7 hours of overtime this week and about 25 last week.  It's nice.  Thats going to be a nice juicy pay check in a week.
I had been engaged to a girl for a year and a half recently, and we just broke up.  I've been trying to move on, but she just keeps popping up in my life with her problems, and I flat out told her a day ago that it's not my deal, I have my own shit to deal with, like getting hit by cars when biking because no one pays attention to sidewalk traffic.  So she hasn't even messaged me in the last two days, which is nice. 
As for my bike, I'm thinking it needs a proper funeral.  Something with fireworks and LOTS of beer.  The amount of time I put into upgrading that things is the biggest loss of all, not the money.  That was a nice bike, and I took it from a piece of junk to something I could really ride, and now it's gone.  I'm going to look into repairs, but I am pretty sure they will be much to expensive, and may as well buy a bike on e-bay.
Well, thats it for now, I'll be back in a couple of days with more, I'm sure.

So I was recently "eaten" by something called the "Opera Monster," but it must not have like me, cause I got spit back out into the world. Thats why I have not posted in so long. For those of you that saw the Tales of Hoffmann, it was a lot of fun and hard work. Now that it's over, You'll probably be seeing a lot of more of me around campus.....yay!!!! But then again, it's the end of the semester, meaning snap concerts, planned concerts, studying for tests, papers to write, and lots and lots of exams to study for. Talk about FUN!

I'm sleeping on my new pink sheets tonight. PINK!!!!!!!

So the MSU Men's Glee Club is going to Eau Claire Wisconsin for some kind of competition thing, and we are going to be there all weekend. It's going to be a blast, the only crappy thing is that we will be on a buss all day during St. Patty's. Oh well, I guess worse things could happen. Anyhow, wish me luck, and I'll see you all on the flip side.

THE HOUSE SOLD!!!!!!! Now my mom can go to Penn. and be with my father, and my father will stop being bored out of his mind.

I'm finally back in the EL. OH MY GOD. Worst trip back ever. My brother and his fiancé had a huge fight over who was going to take the girl scout cookies to my brother-in-law. Last night, they had worked it all out, she was to get direction and take the cookies my bro, and aaron was gonna bring me back here. Well, she got all bitchy and din't look up the direction, we left at 12:20 like we had planned, and we stopped in capac to get gas and food. Right as we are leaving, his cell phone rings, and its her, and she starts yelling at him so loud I can hear her perfectly, and she's bitching at him for leaving without her and she doesn't know the way and blah blah blah and it just goes on for 45 seconds and so we turn around and head backwards thirty miles to her house, and when we get there, she isn't. So we just wasted an hour looking for her ass and she's nowhere to be found. He tried calling her, but her phone is off, so I'm annoyed and HE IS PISSED. He is screaming and driving like a mad man and I'm hanging on for dear life. Several time I had to tell him to slow down from 95-100 cause he would have blown his head gasket, and he doesn't have the money to get that fixed. Anyhow, we get back on the highway and start to come back again, and he gets a call from her and she's just yelling even more, and she hangs up. She does this three times, each convo lasting about 45 seconds, and he's just going insane. Finally he calls her and gets her to calm down, and she's apparently left her house to go back to school, but the reason she was so pissy is because she paid for the cookies with "her" money which she took from his bank account and wanted to collect the money herself from him, but she didn't know how to get there. So for the next sixty miles, my brother talked her through how to get there, and he was just fanned to the teeth with this whole situation, and is still most likely pissed at her, cause all he gets to do tonight is help her with her homework and listen to her tell him he's a fuck-up. I don't know why he stays with her.......

God this sucks. I can't sleep past 9:00 in the morning, and thats with going to bed at 1 in the morning. I don't get it. I just want to sleep all freaking day. However, I have been doing a lot of work on my music, and it's coming along quite nicely. I've also been bored out of my mind, and thus been watching a lot of movies. It's a very little known film, but "Top Secret" with Val Kilmer is a hilarious movie, and I suggest that everyone see it once in their life.
I can't wait to get back to school. I don't know what to do with myself here. It's just me and my mom, and she's gone most of the day at work. I pretty much just run, sing, and watch movies, and there's really no joy in any of them right now. But things will get better, they always do.

I found this on the RVB journals.  Someone has WAY too much time on their hands.


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